Hey hey...back to blog...hahas...lots of things happen though...the ups and downs and the downs are all veru extreme one..well...yesterday was a great night with collegues! !Advance celebrate for me...had all of them there...felt so happy...felt so touch...jing chen my chen ge bought me a doremon cake..its like..awww~~sweet...samuel also..sing happy bday song to me...hahaha..its like oh my...the most happiest thing is sin hwa went too...hahaha... 他是最难请的一位...hahaha...than jushin and qian ke also came!! Its like..thanks guys!! After that went to east coast park with banana...guess who is it...lolx...go there relax blow wind..so cooling...unfortunately it rains...haish..soo we hide under shelter...than on call cabby...than we both run in the rain. ..to get the cab. ...*shy* felt damn embarrassed de lo....wet wet take cab. .hahaha...anyway!! Thanks alot a big thank....
Well..met up with my ♥ with common friend...agree with what u say...I shouldnt use the same old method to treat ♥...hmm..already ask him liao..see how he want things to be like..but definitely I will try harder... :) :) thanks alot to lighten me up about this...I do cherish ♥ just that I am using the old method which wont work out within him..haha...shall need to explore him liao...see what should I do...hahahaha...time to rest..good night all..congrats to u..and good night♥♥ muacks!
不知不觉已经过了第二个月了。我们在一起两个月了!真糟糕。。我忘记了。对不起!!time flies...happy belated 2nd month laogong!!♥muacks! I still love you just like I do... :) :) although we fight we have conflict..but..I didnt changed!!依然还是很爱你。♥♥ eternity does exist♥
Wow!!! Went to the temple thing and saw my all time favourite artist from taiwan!!可爱王子皓皓。Run all the way to backstage and get two pictures with him...hahaha...my mum cant tahan..toooo fancy over him!!♥原来我也有疯狂的一面。But you didnt came...tot can share it with u too...lols...♥...
Well..went and watch despicable me 2 with ♥...but something werid that I dont talk to him also didnt look at him...ha...I also mind blank..dont know what to do...but I see him I only feel like doing a thing...hahaha...guess what!! I just wanna hug him...nothing else...but I didnt do tt...coz I dunno...haha...就很像在等他自己主动打破那一参冰。hai ya ya...我不懂。。。。
In my previous post i mention about my Korkor...Haha..He is actually one of the my friend i know when i was in secondary 2..I still remember i know him through one of my friend...Its like a big link..Ever since i know him my life change alot..He dote me quite alot...Everytime i have any problem with my homework or with something else i always called him up...And soon we become very closed...I miss the past days with him as well as our common friend than...
Recently just met up with him again...Its been so long...We lost contact for almost going 4 years..And now...We finally get back in contact and the most funny part is my friend ask me why am i so closed to him even i lost contact with him for almost 4 years...I myself also dont know the answer..
That night..i went to ECP alone to relax and see the sea enjoy the wind..I called him up..And ask him is he free..To my surprise...He is just nice going home from work so i just cab all the way to tampines and look for him...I had quite alot of stress and things and wanted to look for a person to throw everything out...So when i first saw him...Its like...We dont feel any uneasy or awkward yet we felt like we never ever lost contact before...He gave me the same feeling like last time..He always make me felt so safe..Which is hard to find the kind of feeling yeah..Than i tell him everything and slowly he explain everything to me..Hahaha...After all...He talk to me alot and ask me about my life..And i tell him tooo....I also ask him...Hows is his life...He was now working in the family business and also need to fly to china Frequently...now he is back in china..Very bad lo...Fly to China also never tell me..Never give me a call..heartless kor..when you are back nii jiu si ding le...hahahah....Dont forget my gifts hoh!!
Now i felt super relax and super light..without all the stress..Can finally give myself a big break..Just waiting for him to come back....
And heres my plan for things....
Firstly during october will be going to taiwan trip a 4 days getaway with <3 to relax myself...Go taiwan see things and if possible will visit some of the temple there...
Next i will be planning for a trip to genting highlands...To go to their theme park...I haven plan when to go and who to go with...Hahahah.
In year 2014 maybe will be flying to china too..
I wanna go to different places different country...Maybe the trip to china will go to visit kor if he is going soon...but for 2014 planning is quite early yet...hahah...things might change..LOLX.. > <
Yeahh Yeahh...I also dont know what else to write..hahah...Just wait and see if i got any thing to write liao...i wanna go watch shin chan cartoon lu also have abit of apps with kor!!~~~ Bye bloggy...
Finally sort out my mind and resolved all the things that I been in and unable to sort out...
Firstly..I would need to thank the person that always stay there with me telling me all the logic..I am sorry if I had been very stubborn..Not I dont understand your point of view or what...I know you care that's why u say..If you dont of cause you wont even say a word..Been days and I finally get out of it liao...Seriously it had been quite tough for you too...Cause of my unstable motions also because of my stubborn mindset..But now..case closed...I am not going to think anymore of them...Because I should let all the matter to a stop...Like that would be much more better through!!
Secondly..I am quite happy this few days..Cause I finally found my korkor in SG..He is now flying both places...To china and in Sing for his family business...He is a very very caring and a very very big warm guy!! I knew him when I was in my secondary years...He dote me alot from then...Can say that among all people...Except from you he dote me the most..He is still that big..Make me felt super super secure when I saw him...I wont need to think of all the troubles...He will always like be there no matter where is he...He didnt even forget me...hahaha...Guess this korkor of mine will be the best korkor ever ba...haha...I went and look for him on monday night after the east coast park relaxing...I told him every single thing that troubled me..Every single things that I really really want to solved...And I tell him about you too...And he was like..Telling me explaining to me and telling me what should I do...sooo I decided to listen to his way...The last sentence he told me..Make me felt that I am way to far behind...My kor had been see-ing all this and been through. .so he explain...He told me..To put down all the things that I should need to put down earlier on...Like stuffs for the job..I am only an executive a sales personnel I dont need to think that much for boss and also for other people...What I need to do is just to closed sales do my job..The rest of the Extra jobs should let the boss and In charge to do...Because right now he see that I am doing everyone's job...which is they are making use of this to take advantage...So I look back and think through..In deed I am doing three person job at a time..I took too much responsibility..So from now..I decided just to do my part...No more doing extra stuff...In retail line...Theres no way that I could always have my off on weekends...Hope this you could understand....But if possible...I will try to find a weekend off everymonth...My kor say I been too much into work and already neglected all the things I like to do and the people I loved..its true...I neglected every single things...So...Its time for me to think back and make it up...
I always go to east coast at night..I know its dangerous..but whenever I need a break I will go there..because theres the wind theres the sea...I loved to listen to the wave that sweep up to the shore..I loved the wind thats so cold and I loved to walk along the sea sides...Its always my all time favourite...The thing I loved the most is to walk along the seaside with my love and also watch the sun set and sun rise...thats the only thing I wanted to do but I got no chance...I wish I can do that...hahaha...
Well...A big thank to you and a big thank for Kor!!
Lastly...kor flying to china on saturday morning...haish...sooonnn!!!! Oh dear...I will miss u badly...haha...Remember my gifts...cheii...thanks kor for giving me the shelter when I need the most..you are always like a big blanket for me..你就像一个大棉被能包容我让我在里面哭。棉被湿了只要拿出去晒太阳干了还是那么蓬松温暖!!Thanks alot to you!! And btw..JJ...Thanks alot for your care! I know it been quite tough for you..quite stressed up..sorry dear♥♥no next time ok...I dont wan any conflict with u anymore...coz I felt unhappy whenever theres conflict with u...I won't go out late night liao...Be a good gal stay at home..dont let parents worry also dont let u worry liao...ooohhh kkkayyyy!!!♥♥♥
Afterall...I felt really really relaxed now!!weee~~
Next post will be a happy ones liao...lets wait for korkor to be back a meet up with alot of people than write my day end report!
Here in my bloggy..dont know what to post...hahaha...I miss him!! ♥
I had been trying to put in effort to pull us closer...but...I dunno why...its still so far...I dun wish to see the relationship turn blend and eventuallly separated...I am trying hard to really pull it back...but it seems like...you just want it to be in this way...I dont know what to say and what to do...you are the first person making me so lost dont know what should I do...I treasure u alot I put u in priorities...due to my work and stress...I neglected u have some conflict with you..this doesnt mean that you are nothing to me..I cared about you I will think about you...I wonder how many days we didnt met up...all I can do is looking through all the past messages...looking at my wallpaper when I misses u...sometime..I wanted to call u...but...I dont know should I or should I not...我不想当我跟你说我多想你的时候你还是冷冷的回应我。I really dont know what to do...I dont wanna see things go in the opposite way...haish...我该怎么办。
*这是一首歌的歌词*
一想起你的脸庞我就会忍不住微笑
闭上眼都是你的画面让我都睡不着
原来这就是恋爱味道让人真受不了
我发了狂的想你你知不知道
想要和时间赛跑想要围在你身边绕
我的爱像火在烧飞机大炮也挡不了
想听你说永远都爱着我
想听你说永远都想着我
想听你说永远都陪着我
直到地球走到宇宙的尽头
想听你说永远都赖着我
想听你说永远不离开我
想听你说永远都黏着我
我想要带你穿越时空到永久..
我想跟你说我多想你。却害怕你的回答会很冷淡。我想跟你说你对我很重要。我想努力把我们的距离拉近。让彼此的关系好一点。可是你让我觉得你不想了。我不想这样子。我想要以前的那个你。我承认我是太过投入在工作上。我承认有时我没顾虑到你。可是现在我不会再这样了。你却离我好遥远。我该怎么办。我好想你。却开始害怕失去你了。你能跟我说你要的是怎么样的我吗。hai ya ya....wonder if I am thinking too much...but I just want the you that I loved the most...good night to you..muacks...W.A.N
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JrM8DUOD-C4&feature=youtube_gdata_player
This song remind me of somethings....只想对他说。我好想你。
Felt like...we drift apart...felt that we are no longer in one... :( although I had conflict with you..but I didnt forget you or removed you...but...now...I felt that...你离我遥远了
Well...been through this week..make me feel like one month had pass...but now everything its over...吵也吵了。骂也骂了。哭也哭了。我想通了。I am going to put all this to a full stop and start again a new chapter..But I am wondering still wondering..what should I do...我还是跟以前一样就好了。listen to you and follow jiu hao le...我还是习惯这样子。so from now on...just like tt norh...hahaha.. 我宁愿选择当一个听话的人也不要做一个有主见的人...就跟以前一样。当一个被爱的人。我习惯了以前那样。我会花多一点时间陪我爱的人也不会一直忙于工作。所以你不要觉得我很喜欢"黏"住你。哈哈哈哈。因为这样的我才是我吧 。所以现在起。就这样吧。哈哈哈哈。
Back to blog again...This few days is just very bad for me...Everything was screwed up...I am mentally and physically screwed up too...Even my off day cannot in peace...Still need to come back to store to do stock take...In the end I was counting everything by myself..The rest of them are just doing nothing...Really really pissed off with that...Make me come back do this fking job and got no pay for that..Its like hey...Cant you guys do it yourself...Its just like pissing me off...The big boss also the same..Trying to test my patient...I had my limit better dont make me too boiled up...If not I can explode anywhere anytime and to anyone...Seriously this company getting more and more fked up...Argh...Make me so vexed...At work still ask me to coach new staff...He dont even make the effort to remember what I told him...Cant even hit the simple target I gave him..Why cant you just bucked up...You show np improvement and boss keep on stressing me..I dont want to do all this and I dont really wanna give a damn...I am only a normal sales executive taking a basic pay of 1250 why should I do all this extra stuff...Coaching new staff is the job of the ARMs and SSE..Its not a normal SE job..Boss are just asking me to do more than what I should do...If thats the case..Please fire the useless ARMs and all your SSE!! At night also cannot rest well..Have been losing my sleep..Whole person felt so stress felt so bottled with work...I just want to have a day job free stress free...Argh...dont know what should I do...Everything seems to screw up and fk up...I got no time or no mood to do any other thing...I waiting to get a short break soon when my RM is back...I need a 2 days break...I am tired of all this...But people just cant give me a break...Could I just disappear...Than I thought he could be understanding...In the end....He make me felt that he dont understand...I realise that his way of thinking is different from mine...make me felt like we are drifting apart...I admit I am too occupied with work...I am too stressed already....I dont wish to fight with him or to have any quarrel so I chosed not to talk to him...I need time to really free myself from my working stress...I hope you really can understand me...I am under alot of stress and I need time to get rid of all this...Of course I know I really really neglected you...I tried to really really talk to u or text you but everytime I failed..Because I am afraid that It might go in the opposite way...Nothing else I could say...The only word I can say is I am sorry...sorry for neglecting you...
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